Testi – Vol. 3: (The Subliminal Verses)

 

Prelude 3.0

I don’t know why I never told you

I don’t know why I never tried
When we shed these bitter skins again
All the reasons come to life

But now it’s over…

I don’t know why you never asked me
I don’t know why you never cared
When we hide these little sins again
All the reasons have to die

But now it’s over…

No!

 

The Blister Exists

Bones in the water and dust in my lungs
Absorbing archaic like a sponge
The ultimate way is the way you control
But can you stay if you detach your soul?
Bury the present and squeeze out the past
The ones you endear to never last
Chemical burns and the animalistic
I’m just another hardline pseudo-statistic

Can you feel this?
I’m dying to feel this
Can you feel this?

Blood on the paper and skin on my teeth
Trying to commit to what’s beneath
To find the time is to lose the momentum
You learn the lessons and immediately forget them
Automatic and out of my reach
Consult all the waste to find the key
Minimal life and the polysyllabic
I’m just another blank page – push the button, pull the rage

Can you feel this?
I’m dying to feel this
Can you feel this?

I am all, but what am I?
Another number that isn’t equal to any of you
I control, but I comply
Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces
I’m uneven

I am the damaged one
All my life and the damage done

Can you feel this?
I’m dying to feel this
Can you feel this?

I am all, but what am I?
Another number that isn’t equal to any of you
I control, but I comply
Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces
I’m uneven

 

Three Nil

One
Two
Three
NIL!!!
Chaos – it’s just the beginning
Every promise I made I’m rescinding
Center mass in the middle of the monster
I’m getting tired of drowning the constant
cry for help – it’s debatable
The only reason that you love me is I’m hated by all
Come on – Come see dysfunction
I guess we’re gonna leave it open for discussion

Who am I? And where am I going?
Maybe I’m looking in the wrong direction
Maybe I’m looking for any direction
This is not my war – This is not my fight
This is something more – This is not my life
(This is not my) Revolution
(This is not my) Convolution
(This is not my) Expectation
(This is not my) Desperation

Holed up, scarred and tamed for the hell of it
Look at me – I’m the glorified malcontent
Save me? Save this!
All I gotta do is give up and all is forgiven
I’m sick – Of being the butt of a cosmic joke
And I don’t get the punch line
A million people lined up for miles
To see the Great Big Mouth shut up and apologize

This is not my war – This is not my fight
This is something more – This is not my life
(This is not my) Revolution
(This is not my) Convolution
(This is not my) Only reason to question why
Today, I said goodbye!

Goodbye!
Oh I didn’t need to leave to stay right here
Today I said goodbye!

I am the pariah (break me)
I am the liar (save me)
I can take anything (make me)
Accuse me of everything (take me)
Cut off the system (shape me)
Deny my existence (waste me)
I won’t be afraid (try me)
I won’t be unmade (deny me)

So come on – break it off
Come on – buy the lie
Come on – say it, say it
Come on

Say goodbye!

Goodbye!
Oh I didn’t need to leave to stay right here
Today I said goodbye!
Goodbye!
Oh I didn’t need to leave to stay right here
Today I said goodbye!

 

Duality

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it’s way inside
If the pain goes on…

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I’ve waited as my time’s elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I’ve wished for this, I’ve bitched at that
I’ve left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create

I’ve gotta say what I’ve gotta say
And then I swear I’ll go away
But I can’t promise you’ll enjoy the noise
I guess I’ll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You’re left with me ‘cause you left me no choice

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on, I’m not gonna make it!

Put me back together or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces, then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way – nothing is what it seems

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it’s way inside
If the pain goes on, I’m not gonna make it!

All I’ve got – all I’ve got is insane

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it’s way inside
If the pain goes on, I’m not gonna make it!

All I’ve got – all I’ve got is insane

 

Opium Of The People

Watch those idiosyncrasies
Watch all the idiots fall on me
Getting out of ways to get outta the way
Take another shot just to stay the same
But I need some balance – Back it off
Fill your lungs ‘til it makes you cough
Tell me everything’s gonna be alright
‘Cause I don’t think I’ll make it through tonight

The only way – Is all the way

Oh – my – God
It’s judgement day and I’m not prepared
Everybody out there’s running scared
So – Take a little bit off the top
I don’t care, just make it stop

I won’t give another soul… to you
I won’t give another life… to you
You have to stop
Stop!

Do one thing and say something cryptic
But the styles always clash
One thing I know for sure
The hypothetical won’t work anymore
One wrong move and they will pound!
My nails are tight inside my wrists
This sacrament is sacrilege and sentimental
Deity experimental – Faith is accidental

I won’t give another soul… to you
I won’t give another life… to you
I won’t give another thought… to you
I won’t give anymore of my hope… to you

 

Circle

Give me the dust of my fathers
Stand on the face of the ancients
Bare the secret flesh of time itself

Follow me… I’ve come so far, I’m behind again
Follow me… I Wish so hard, I’m there again
Follow me…

All that I wanted were things I had before
All that I needed, I never needed more
All of my questions are answers to my sins
And all of my endings are waiting to begin

I know the way, but I faulter
I can’t be afraid of my patience
There’s a sacred place Razel keeps safe

Follow me… I’ve seen so much I’m blind again
Follow me… I feel so bad I’m alive again
Follow me…

All that I wanted were things I had before
All that I needed, I never needed more
All of my questions are answers to my sins
And all of my endings are waiting to begin

 

Welcome

I am a product – of your conduct
The uncontrollable urges that made me
Have made us all – Are you proud? Do you even care?
You taught us all to lie – that’s how we made it here
You should’ve buried the truth with your secrets
But you were far to impressed with your pretense
Now as far as I know, I don’t know anything
‘Cause you made damn sure I wasn’t anything

Distractions, reactions
The only way to go is to go away
Discarded, retarded
Before I let you go, you have to let me

Clawed away from human clay
We are the broken shards, the art disarray
Before you condemn, you rape them, feed us meconium
Stunt our growth from our souls to our throats – cut!
You shouldn’t wall us up with your apathy
But you did – now you’re only growing enemies
This is the catalyst, the alpha, the first breed
‘Cause you made damn sure – Now we’re everything

Distractions, reactions
The only way to go is to go away
Discarded, retarded
Before I let you go, you have to let me

Much to my surprise, I will wake up
And follow the path of the ones I am made of
But this time… I won’t give in
I will save you from my sins

Ensconced… in all that’s wrong
I slam you shut… I can only take so much
How many times do I have to mistreat you?
Constantly biting my hand as I feed you
Maybe now you’ll understand severity
I’ll sum it up with the best amount of brevety

Welcome to the transformation
Welcome to annihilation
Welcome to the man that wanted
everything but couldn’t have it!

Distractions, reactions
The only way to go is to go away
Discarded, retarded
Before I let you go, you have to let me

Much to my surprise, I will wake up
And follow the path of the ones I am made of
But this time… I won’t give in
I will save you from my sins

 

Vermilion

She seems dressed in all the rings… of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious – she continues to see
climatic hands that press her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home – forever

Oh…

She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic
My dahlia, bathed in possesion – she is home to me
I get nervous, perverse, when I see her, it’s worse
But the stress is astounding
It’s now or never, she’s coming home – forever

Oh… She’s the only one that makes me sad

Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy – aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face – to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize

I won’t let this build up inside of me…

I’m a slave and I am a master
No restraints and unchecked collectors
I exist to my need – to self-oblige
She is something in me – that I despise

I won’t let this build up inside of me…

She isn’t real – I can’t make her real

 

Pulse Of The Maggots

This is the year where hope fails you
The test subjects run the experiments
And the bastards you know, is the hero you hate
But cohesing is posssible if we strive
Theres no reason, theres no lesson
No time like the present, telling you right now
What have you got to lose, what have you got to lose
Except your soul… just listen

I fight for the unconventional
My right and it’s unconditional
I can only be as real as i can
The disadvantage is I never knew the plan
this isn’t just a way to be a martyr
I can’t walk alone any longer
I fight for the ones who can’t fight
and if I lose, at least I tried!

We are the new diabolic
We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
We are the pulse of the maggots

I won’t be the inconsequential
I won’t be the wasted potential
I can make it as severe as I can
Until you realize, you’ll never take a stand
It isn’t just a one-sided version
We’ve dealt with a manic subversion
I won’t let the truth be perverted
And I won’t leave another victim deserted

We are the new diabolic
We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
We are the pulse of the maggots

(Do you understand?) Yes

Say it again, say it again
(We won’t die)

We fight ‘til no one can fight us
We live and no one can stop us
We pull when we’re pushed too far
And the advantage is, the bottom line is
We never had to fight in the first place
We only had to spit back in their face
We won’t walk alone any longer
What doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger

We are the new diabolic
We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
We are the pulse of the maggots

(Do you understand?) Yes

Say it again, say it again
(We won’t die)

 

Before I Forget

Stapled shut – Inside an outside world
And I’m sealed in tight – Bizarre but right at home
I’m claustrophobic – Closing in
And I’m catastrophic – Not again
I’m smeared across the page and doused in gasoline
I wear you like a stain, yet I’m the one who’s obscene
Catch me up in all your sordid little insurrections
I’ve got no time to lose – I’m just caught up in all the cattle

Fray the strings… Throw the shapes… Hold your breath… Listen

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that

I’m ripped across the ditch and settled in the dirt
And I wear you like a stitch, yet I’m the one who’s hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions
I’ve got no right to win – I’m just caught up in all the battles

Locked in clutch… Pushed in place… Hold your breath… Listen

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that

My end, it justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road and my end
It justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that

 

Vermilion pt. 2

She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I’d do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what to do
When she makes me sad

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She’s a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason

I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what to do
When she makes me sad

But I won’t let this build up inside of me

I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won’t – no
I don’t wanna be this

But I won’t let this build up inside of me

She isn’t real
I can’t make her real

 

The Nameless

Pathetic/BENIGN/Accept it/UNDERMINE
Your opinion/MY JUSTIFICATION
Happy/SAFE/Servant/CAGED
Malice/UTTER WEAKNESS
No toleration – invade
COMMITED/Enraged/ADMIT IT
Don’t condescend/DON’T EVEN DISAGREE
Destroy/DECAY/Disappoint/DELAY
You’ve suffered then/NOW SUFFER UNTO ME

Obsession – take another look
Remember – every chance you took
Decide – either live with me
Or give up – any thought you had of being free

(Don’t go) I never wanted anybody more
than I wanted you…
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved
was hate…

Anyone/NO/Anything/YES/Anyway/FALL/Anybody/MINE/
Anybody/TELL ME
I want/YOU/I need/YOU/I’ll have/YOU/I won’t/
LET ANYBODY HAVE YOU
Obey/ME/Believe/ME/Just trust/ME/Worship/ME/
Live for/ME
Be grateful/NOW/Be honest/NOW/Be precious/NOW/
Be mine/JUST LOVE ME

Posession – feed my only vice
Confession – I won’t tell you twice
Decide – either die for me
Or give up – any chance you had of being free

(Don’t go) I never wanted anybody more
than I wanted you…
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved
was hurting you…
(Don’t go) I never wanted anybody more
than I wanted you…
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved
was hate…

Stay inside the hole – let me take control
Dominate
You are nothing more – you are something less
Innocent
Something has to give – something has to break
Omnipresent
Fingers in your skin – let me savage in
You deserve it

(Don’t go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you…
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hurting you…
(Don’t go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you…
(I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hate…

You’re mine (I KNOW WHO YOU ARE)

 

The Virus Of Life

I can see you but you can’t see me
I could touch you and you wouldn’t even feel me
Wait a second and you’ll settle down
I’m just waiting ‘til you really let your guard down
You’re relaxed, you’re sublime, you’re amazing
You don’t even know the danger that you’re facing
If I’m quiet, I’ll slide up behind you
And if you hear me, I’ll enjoy trying to find you

I’ve been with you all day
I’m trying to stay calm
I’m impatient and it’s really hard to breathe
I’m going to empty you and fill you in with me
Just keep the violence down
Not yet – don’t make a sound
Oh, God I’m feeling it
it’s reaching fever pitch
My skin is caving in
My heart is driving out
No mercy, no remorse
Let nature take it’s course

Watching – bring me to my knees
Waiting – I am your disease
Lover – Set my symptom free
Covered – You won’t feel a thing
You can’t stop me

I’m sweating through my veins
I’m trying to hold on
It’s unbearable, it’s almost worse for me
I’m gonna tear you apart and make you see – make you see

Watching – bring me to my knees
Waiting – I am your disease
Lover – Set my symptom free
Covered – You won’t feel a thing
You can’t stop me

This is the virus, the virus of life
This is inside us, the crisis, the knife
This is the virus, the virus of life
This is inside us, the crisis, the knife

It’s almost time to play/it’s time to be afraid
I can’t control the pain/I can’t control in vain
Oh God, I’m ready now/you’re almost ready now
I’m gonna love you now/I’m gonna put you down
I see you in the dark/I see you all the way
I see you in the light/I see you plain as day
I wanna touch your face/I wanna touch your soul
I wanna wear your face/I wanna burn your soul

Watching – bring me to my knees
Waiting – I am your disease
Lover – Set my symptom free
Covered – You won’t feel a thing
You can’t stop me

This is the virus, the virus of life

 

Danger – Keep Away

We too feel alone

That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine
That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine

Where have I been all this time?
Lost, enslaved, fatal decline.
I’ve bee waiting for this to fold, but
But pieces are only as good as the whole!
I sever myself from my whole life,
I cut out the only thing that was right!
What if I never saw you again?
I’d die right next to you in the end.

That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine
That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine

I wont let you walk away
Without hearing what I have to say
Without hearing what I have to say
Without hearing what I have to say

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