Testi – .5: The Gray Chapter

 

XIX

This song… is not for the living
this song is for the dead

With my face against the floor,
I can’t see who knocked me out of the way

I don’t want to get back up, but I have to…
so it might as well be today

Nothing appeals to me- no one feels like me
I’m too busy being calm to disappear

I’m in no shape to be alone,
contrary to the shit that you might hear

SO WALK WITH ME – WALK WITH ME
Don’t let the symbolism kill your heart

WALK WITH ME – WALK WITH ME
Just like we should have done right from the start

WALK WITH ME – WALK WITH ME
Don’t let this fucking world tear you apart

 

Sarcastrophe

Revel in the weight of it
Discover what you’re doing to it
Underneath the fall of it
It’s whether or not? give a shit
How could you forget about it
Did you think you could minimize?
This is the age of consent
You’ll get a day in the sun before I kill your fucking lights

Burn up in your atmosphere
Burn up in your atmosphere

Desecrate your temples
Only in name of me
Don’t let the crowds just scatter
Prepare for judgement day

We are kill gods

The gates are falling down
Gotta find a way to get there
Bury your head in the ground
With your falsified for your far share
With got plus negative one
It’s everybody’s guess what the hell they want
Will you come testify in the court of my
Open opinion, or will you settle for oblivion

We are kill gods

We make this world worth saving
Are you prepared to be late?
Kill everything that kills you
Live long and die for me

You make what you think in the middle
All these years hiding all the bodies
I could never make sure.

We are kill gods

We make this world worth saving
Are you prepared to believe?
Kill everything that kills you
Live long and die for me

 

AOV

Black
Dirty thief
In the grease
Was the proof too good to be believed?
Is the cunt
With the dumb
Who belongs on broken knees?

So far it occurs to me
That everybody in the world is afraid of me
Just one more cent and down we go
Now the news is out
And I think I’m going to

Kill myself
Or fuck myself
Or tell myself
About the only thing that matters now
We bury what we fear the most
Approaching original violence!
Is the silence where you hide it?
Cuz I don’t recognize you anymore

To each his own
I can do with one less watered down excuse
If this is over you can
Tell me it’s no use

Use!
Just tell me it’s over!

Today
We will deceive
Our better selves
Into assimilating pain from something else
Put on your face
And show me why
Behind the scenes we had to simply comply

Now the community
Doesn’t feel any better than it used to be
I wanna be a judge in a criminal case
You covered up, did you come to be
Be yourself
Not yourself
Know yourself
Cuz no one seems to know you now

We carry what we can’t control
Approaching original violence
In the silence
There is a nihilist
Who does’t care
And now they’re dead

To each his own
I can do with one less watered down excuse
There comes a time when we can’t
Take the same abuse
If this is over you can tell me it’s no use

Use!

Drug out bits I’ll never get to say
What you wanted doesn’t matter
Nothing’s gonna change
I don’t wanna watch another brother fucking die
So discarded, fall over the side
Don’t tell me it’s the only way
Just another reason why you never take the bait
The trials, the screaming, the burdens of the beast
Fucked your face and turned your back on
Everything you thought could save a try

We are the angels fear to tread
Approaching original violence
We’re the silence
We’ll deny it
We can’t continue on like this

To each his own
I can do with one less watered down excuse
There comes a time when we can’t
Take the same abuse
My God, it won’t take it just one
Reckless day from you
Now that this is over you can
Tell me it’s no use

Use!
Just tell me it’s over!

It doesn’t matter what you say
It doesn’t matter what you do
We can’t continue on like this

 

The Devil In I

Undo these chains, my friend. I’ll show you the rage I’ve hidden.
Perish the Sacrament. Swallow, but nothing’s forgiven.
You and I can’t decide which of us was taken for granted.
Make amends… some of us are destined to be outlived.

STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
Too many times, we’ve let it come to this
STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
You’ll realize I’m not your Devil anymore

Under the words of men, something is tempting the father.
Where is your will, my friend? Insatiates never even bother.
You and I, wrong or right, traded a lie for the leverage.
In between the lens in light, you’re not what you seem.

STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
Too many times, we’ve let it come to this
STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
You’ll realize I’m not your Devil…
I’m Not Your Devil Anymore

Your Station- Is Abandoned- Fool You ‘cause I know what you’ve done
Sensation- Depravation- You should’ve burned when you turned on everyone

SO STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
Too many times, we’ve let it come to this
STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
Oh, when all that’s left does not make sense
STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
I know you’ll find your answers in the end
STEP INSIDE/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I
You’ll realize I’m not your Devil… anymore

SO STEP INSIDE/ STEP INSIDE
SEE THE DEVIL IN I/ SEE THE DEVIL IN I

 

Killpop

She’s sticking needles in her skin
I turn with another grin
Her canvas doesn’t leave a lot to fantasy
But her peace of mind can’t stay inside the lines
It’s so confusing, the methods that she’s using
She knows she shouldn’t leave a mark that I can see
Will she ever find, wondering of a kind
It’s cold and lonely, but that’s because she told me
Lost inside her dirty world
No one hurts this pretty girl but her

Love, she’s beautiful
A little better than her mind defers
You are not inside
Please tell me she won’t change

Maybe I should let her go
But only when she loves me
(She loves me)
How can I just let her go?
Not until she loves me
(She loves me)

She’s drowning in herself again
My god, what a lovely sin
I guess there’s nothing left to do
But have my way
She can feel it’s right
So she doesn’t close her eyes
She smiles and answers
It doesn’t seem to matter
Lost inside my dirty head
Something tells me I’m the one who’s kept

Loud, so volatile
A little better than her mind defiled
Who I need to be
Please tell me she won’t change

Maybe I should let her go
But only when she loves me
(She loves me)
How can I just let her go?
Not until she loves me
(She loves me)

We were meant to be together
Now die and fucking love me
We were made to hate each other
Now die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me
Die and fucking love me

 

Skeptic

They wanna fight
Commiserate
Do we get a little taste as unique
The libertine, know what I mean?
Hiroshima on a sad day
You had a gift
You were a gift
But there’s always a goddamn catch
Blessing and a curse
You made it work
The universe is so much smaller
Legend
Bastard
Dear friend
Why?
Why do the limits have to reunite?
Hero
Martyr
Mystery
God
He was the best of us

The world will never see another crazy motherfucker like you
The world will never know another man as amazing as you
(Oh)

Never be the same
I want the blame
To be assigned to the guiltiest one
It can’t be done
Because it’s on
Consider me arrested
I?m so fucking pissed
At all of this
You gotta know that you are sorely missed
Miracles are real
They help you heal
They make you feel
Like things will get better
Father
Brother
Scapegoat
Why?
Why did we only skip this time?
Fighter
Icon
Skeptic
God
Stop taking the best of us
I won’t let you disappear
I will keep your soul alive
If I can’t have you here
History may have its share
Of lunatics and stars

But the world will never see another crazy motherfucker like you
The world will never know another man as amazing as you
The world will never see another crazy motherfucker like you
The world will never know another man as amazing as you

Skeptic, skeptic, skeptic
Skeptic, skeptic, skeptic

Where am I supposed to begin
I?m killing for the karma again
Feed the meter in the machine
But living is the way to be saved
God, are we alone?
God, are we alone?
God, are we alone?
God, we?re not alone
I can?t let you disappear
I will keep your soul alive
If I can’t have you here
We were meant to be the kings
Rule the masses, run the risk
And keep our systems clean
History may have its share
Of lunatics and stars

But the world will never see another crazy motherfucker like you
The world will never know another man as amazing as you
The world will never see another crazy motherfucker like you
The world will never know another man as amazing as you
The world will never see (WILL NEVER SEE) another crazy motherfucker like you
Like you, like you, like you, like you

 

Lech

I know why Judas wept, motherfucker

The fires burn on the summit
Shining a light on the ones I’ve killed
Survivor’s guilt – undetermined
I could murder the world in all the blood I’ve spilled

Banishment
Still question the conquered
To hell with your intelligence
Just figure out your common sense

No one is bulletproof

And I’ll eat the skins of my brothers
Yellow pastor bones will make a perfect wall
Gonna fill in the cracks of these feelings
With every terrible piece or maybe nothing at all

Selfishness
Take granted for everything
What more could you ask for?
It doesn’t matter anymore

No one is bulletproof

Can you feel the cold?
Fortune never favors the old
Tired of defending myself
Go complain to somebody else
Somebody else

The masses and your manners
Are the voices in your head
They’re smashing out your windows
That you worked for beneath your bed
You live right fucking ‘neath it
So you’ll die like thanking gods
In between the voices and the pure
Cause masses have the charm

Nine for sure

And I have only sand inside of me
It’s a rotting sick that I don’t need
To pene-vent your interro-gration
I can believe I’m saying this
I’ll live with my regrets
I’ll die by my decisions
I’m not your fucking superstar
Keep it closed, you’re going way too far

No one is bulletproof
Bulletproof
No one is bulletproof
Bulletproof
No one is bulletproof
Bulletproof

 

Goodbye

Come on over
Come unglued
It’s not easy
To see all of you
Help yourselves
Help is on the way
Well there’s nothing to lose
So now, I have something to say
Maybe we can all recognize a moment of sadness
Maybe we can finally agree on a sane point of view
A long time ago we believed that we were united
So the last thing on Earth I am ready to do is say, goodbye

A long time ago we discovered that nothing could stop us
This hasn’t torn us apart, so nothing ever will
How can we know where we are if the sun is beyond us
But this moment will show us the rest of our lives
No one is going to save us this time
No one can know what we’re feeling, in that I may trust

 

Nomadic

Let’s stare, upon my head is three onyx
Not again, not another excuse
The epidemic, it codepended
Biting off more than your mouth can chew
Don’t forget to compilate your fake quest
I don’t want to be a man today
For all that you know, I’m the devil and the bullet
I am the trigger that will make you all obey

I’m gonna make you cry tonight
I’m gonna make you hate me

Inside all my thoughts again
I can’t let go
In spite of you, I’m lost again
I still don’t know
Disguise has shown me
What if I am followed – lonely
The status quo was not a punishment
But now it feels like home

You’re as filthy as you thought you’re guilty
Started with the end of the day
Black and white is such a fascist feeling
Right or wrong, and nothing to say
The last good five prints, straight enough to fingerprint
But appreciated medical fiends
Confiscate another classic inbred
Fuck it all – light the acetylene

No one is you as I can’t explain
Life keeps taking things away

Inside all my thoughts again
I can’t let go
In spite of you, I’m lost again
I still don’t know
Disguise has shown me
What if I am never lonely
The status quo was not a punishment
But now it feels like home

“The tough guys who came to kill, but stayed to rape and ravage.”

The tortured serum, that’s my friend
When the evidence came, I committed the flood
Can you stand on your faith with your feet on the bible?
Who could ask for a better disciple
What’s the point, I’m not sure I can
I’ll never dig another grave, I’m afraid of what I’ll find
If it hurts then you’re too woe
I’ll take your shit and gut your fucking goat

I’m gonna make you cry tonight
I need you to hate me

Inside all my thoughts again
I can’t let go
In spite of you, I’m lost again
I still don’t know
Disguise has shown me
What if I have settled on it
The status quo was not a punishment
But now it feels like home
But now it feels like home

 

The One the Kills the Least

I don’t seem to care today
I mirror what I love
Win what I hate
Empty waste can cloud your eyes
I only know because I tried
So come with me
Come with me
Let’s meet our contestants
There’s no better time to play the game

I don’t want to give it away
Underneath I see the kill
Buried deep within guilty regrets
Bleeding in the dark, everything is wonderful
I don’t care, I don’t want to forget
When is it acquired? It’s none of your business
I prefer to be an outlaw of my filth
Turn the other cheek, it’s ever disappointing
You’re refusing to forgive
When nothing was taken

No one else survives
I’ve seen you live, now watch me die
But we don’t see the writing on the wall
And as I close my eyes
I know the deal, I realize
The one that kills the least still kills us all

Hidden in the rubble
Everybody’s got a story to tell
What do I need? Eliminate the impossible
All that’s left is a man and a veil
Maybe our mouth, maybe it’s the station
There’s no better way to go, no better way to be
I’ve got my demon, go get your own
Save another number, don’t forget to hate me

No one else survives
I’ve seen you live, now watch me die
But we will see the writing on the wall
And as I close my eyes
I know the deal, I realize
The one that kills the least still killed us all

No one else survives
I’ve seen you live, now watch me die
But we don’t see the writing on the wall
And as I close my eyes
I’m lost in here, I realize
That the one that kills the least still killed us all
The one that kills the least still kills us all
The one that kills the least still kills us all, all, all, all

 

Custer

How about this one, tata tata tatatata, TATA TATA TATATATA
YEAH

Half alive and stark raving free
In the line front, encroaching
The purpose of this commercial-free interruption
Due to the prolific nature of this statement
Listener aggression is advised

It’s strange, whenever I see a gun
I think about just how petty you are
And it blows my fucking mind
Yeah, it blows my fucking mind
These days, I never seem to get enough
I’m tired of this shit, I want to go up
Don’t waste my fucking time
Don’t waste my fucking time
Because anything exceptional
Gets crushed by governed people
With jealousy and ignorance
And all that coven equals
This one, it isn’t special
Collections made of clay
I’m waiting for the punishment
I know it’s on my way

Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up

Irreverence is my disease
It’s secondhand, but you know me
The son of a bitch is on his knees
The last man standing gets no pity

Somewhere on a toilet wall I read the words you form along
To form a life, they’re for my mind
Then I find myself a truth
Something so profound and now it’s sitting there
Surrounded by the damage of the state
Another victim of the refuse
Now I’ve been saying this for years
But you don’t comprehend it
I fight hell and I fight fear
Because I understand it
Androgeny and insults
Your choice, don’t wanna be difficult
You wanna win the war?
Know what you’re fighting for

Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up

Irreverence is my disease
It’s secondhand, but you know me
The son of a bitch is on his knees
The last man standing gets no pity
With angel eyes and demon seeds
You’re missing what you really need
When all is said and done, you see
The last man standing gets no pity
No pity, no pity, no pity
No pity, no pity
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up
Cut, cut, cut me up and
Fuck, fuck, fuck me up

 

Be Prepared for Hell

I can’t get out or I’ll die
Just let me be
I’ll never be never

Be prepared for Hell and I say oh well
Just tell me when I can open my eyes and realize I’ve died

Be prepared for Hell

 

The Negative One

Fire and Caffeine- a lot of Nicotine- I’m going to burn so I better tell you everything
The Competition- The Superstition- Never mind ‘cause you’re never going to give in
It’s a Crisis, just how you like it- the same drama in a different disguise
I’m bound to walk with a target on my back- At least I’m ready for another attack

The Lord Of Lies/The Morning Star/You Had To Be Set Free
Opposing Sides/Your Choices Are/The Negative One and Me

Svengali- why are we the enemies? I never follow and I never make apologies
Your dementias are gonna getcha- because your walls can’t support each other
Settle for the Cynical- you’re so political
You?re getting ready ‘cause the first move is critical
Reciprocity- somebody’s listening- what did we learn from our time in captivity?

The Lord Of Lies/The Morning Star/You Had To Be Set Free
Opposing Sides/Your Choices Are/The Negative One and Me
The Negative One and Me

I Hope You Live/To See The Day/When Your World Goes Up In Flames
And As You Die/You See My Face/You?re The Only One To Blame

The Prescient/The Nascent/The Quotient (THEY ALL WILL FALL)
The Cystic/Symbolic/Condition (SYSTEMIC)
Egregious/Replete With/These Lesions (CONTAMINATE)
Succumb To/The Selfish/Creation (YOUR FAILURE)

No Accountability- Divisibility- I point a finger but it?s always looking back at me
The Centipede’s pulling on the mechanism- Unearthing scars of the cataclysm
When the Innocent- Begin to circumvent- The color fades but the picture is vibrant
What do you believe? Does it matter now? Turn away- The killer is disavowed

The Lord Of Lies/The Morning Star/You Had To Be Set Free
Opposing Sides/Your Choices Are/The Negative One and Me
The Negative One and Me

I Hope You Live/To See The Day/When Your World Goes Up In Flames
And As You Die/You See My Face/You?re The Only One To Blame

The Lord Of Lies/The Morning Star/You Had To Be Set Free
Opposing Sides/Your Choices Are
The Negative One
The Negative One
The Negative One
The Negative One and Me

 

If Rain Is What You Want

It’s been years since anyone
Could be a friend
It’s the fear that kills the feeling
In the end
Can we face it?
Can we shape it?
Can we really die?
If rain is what you want
All you have to do is close your eyes
Just close your eyes

I have watched your resurrection
Start to crawl
Is there any chance in hell? (Any chance in hell?)
Any chance at all?
Do we need it? Do we see it?
Is it really there?
If rain is what you want
Then take your seats
Enjoy the fall
Enjoy the fall

(Enjoy the fall)
The only thing deeper than my last breath
The only thing darker than my last death
Is the panic, the static
I’ve come back from the dead
For my solace
We’ll never sleep again

In these diamonds
We’re left with colored glass
As pressure takes its toll
We will outlast
But you can’t break my heart
As long as I can be myself
I’ll never fall apart
And you can’t take me in
If I’m not broken, break me down
So I will never feel alone again

The only thing deeper than my last breath
The only thing darker than my last death
Is the panic, the static
I’ve come back from the dead
For my solace
We’ll never sleep again

My solace
We’ll never sleep again

My solace
We’ll never sleep again

My solace
We’ll never sleep again

My solace
We’ll never sleep again

 

Override (Bonus)

The ghosts have killed enough
Familiar haunts have had enough
Too much thought will give you doubt
And now they found you
It’s safer in an encage
They can tell you what to say
All your dreams come with a price, so they own you
But what did you expect?
Was it too much to protect?
Did you understand they had selfish intentions?
And they were pulling you in opposite directions

You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
We are the override oh oh
We are the override

The dead don’t know, the dead are lonely
A fascination phase
When this mercy execution says it’s over
You follow as preferred
Now their plans are un-detoured
Who can bring them in to sew the seed?
It’s over
Even hate starts out as love
Sometimes when it’s all you want
Maybe satisfaction will take you for granted
And all this hope is the emotion you abandoned

You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
We are the override
We are the override, yeah

You clawed out from nothing and I sent you back
Fought to the metal, and law’s what you lacked
Covered in sores, you cannot be the one
You are the answer to why we have risen
You are not the way
You are judged to feel afraid
You are simple and unchanged
We believe you should give up
Give up
Give up
God and his mercy will take you for granted
When all that’s left is a life you abandoned

You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
You don’t know the hell that’s coming
Everybody get on the ground
We are the override oh oh
We are the override

Give up
Give up
Give up
Give up
Give up
Give up
Give up
Give up

 

The Burden (Bonus)

(There’s God) There’s God
Can I feed you again?
Will I have to stay dumb?
You can feel and it begins
But I know inside this heart attack
I can see through your eyes
I’m terrified of everything
But it’s no real surprise
Because the parasites are dancing closer
All this sacrilegious warns in posters
Can you handle it?

In the dark
Why I think I’m alone
I swept through my visions
I’m going too cold
Today is a tragedy
In the mouth of the mad
But that doesn’t matter now
I’ve come relaxed
I’m curled up in a ball, and shaking
I’m hiding from the hell I’m making
I can’t believe the chance I’m taking
Is there any other way?
Is there any other way?

The burden
The burden

(You can’t save me)
There is nothing more to give
(I am changing)
Almost like I never lived
(Be me witness)
Just don’t leave me in suspense
(Keep this, prove it)
Tell them all the consequences

The burden
(Have you ever been burdened before?)
The burden
(Was there anything you wanted more?)

(You can’t save me)
There is nothing more to give
(I am changing)
Almost like I never lived
(Be my witness)
Just don’t leave me in suspense
(Keep this, prove it)
Tell them all the consequences

Our same plea
By now you know that looks are deceiving
I’m covered in a rash and receding
Is there any other way?
Is there any other way?

For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered
His pain is now our lives
For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered enough

For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered
His pain is now our lives
For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered enough

For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered
His pain is now our lives
For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered enough

For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered
His pain is now our lives
For gods’ sakes we’ve suffered enough

Enough
Enough
Enough

 

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